I still have tremendous anxiety, even when its making the Adan which is one of the simplest things to do.

It gets more complicated when your not a native speaker, as I used to doubt everything I said as being mispronounced.

Allahul’mustaan

You have conquered half the battle–now it’s all down-hill. I still feel the same way, and I have spoken in front of hundreds of people throughout my tenure. What you have described in natural. It will be similar to riding a bike soon; insha’Allah.

Something that has always helped me when I stumble or get frustrated with my Arabic reading skills:

The Prophet, peace and blessings upon him, said: “Truly the one who recites the Qur’an beautifully, smoothly, and precisely, he will be in the company of the noble and obedient angels. And as for the one who recites with difficulty, stammering or stumbling through its verses (because he doesn’t know how to read it but is trying to), then he will have twice that reward.”

Subhan-Allah, this always brings tears to my eyes. What a merciful Lord we have.

May you be blessed & rewarded for your striving!

Warmly,
Baraka

as-salaamu ‘alaikum Margari. Samira is right, your honesty is refreshing. I wanted to know why you place so much of your religion on knowledge of the Qur’an? Knowledge in terms of memorization and recitation. Everyone is not meant to be a hafz or qari. Many of the Companions of the Holy Prophet (may Peace and Blessings be upon him) only knew a few ayat of the Qur’an. And they were among the best of the community? Why is that? Because Sayyidina Maulana Muhammad said that the best among you are those who have the best manners, not who is the best reciter or who memorizes the most. If your adab your manners reflect the instruction and guidance Allah subhana wa ta ‘ala has given His Prophet, you are doing better than those who can recite the whole Qur’an yet does not return salaams. Keep this in mind, inshaAllah this will be beneficial for me and others, Amin.